Selfish

I don't want things to change. Promises are not broken so easily.

My love for God rejuvenated through this.

It's hard for most to understand. Society is cruel - it's like going against the world. But please let me be selfish. I want to feel secure. Please let me heal. Give me til June.

Then I'll go away.

Patrice Chan :)

I once wrote this about you when I we were leaving Form 5:

"To my greatest pal since Std 1, who has stood with me through thick and thin, unwavering, my pillar of strength: PATRICE! We've had too many memories together, eh? But I won't forget how people weren't able to tell us apart, how you polluted my brain, how we so often share and keep each other's secrets, how we had the Pokemon Club together (I was secretary, Jas was Vice President or something), how we stopped each other's tears, how we laughed together in school, how we broke the school rules, how we talked about the past, present and future, how we drool over men that will never enter our lives, how we crazed over anime... I'm sure to miss you! I guess I'll have to learn to start walking on my own now without you... (note: most of the pictures I have - has you in the picture)... Without you, I might not have made it past secondary school. I remember how I used to cry in Std 6 when your mum said you were gonna transfer school. And how your mum frightened me again by saying you'll leave our school after Form 3. But I'm glad that you've stayed and made my school life so much more memorable, so much more fun. I hope that we'll still keep in touch with one another through and through til then end!

Btw, you too owe me a Khoosh ball cos it was your fault too that you were too tall. :p"

I was flipping around unnecessarily (MUAHAHAHAHA) recently and I found this recollection of you. And you know what? It's funny that after all this years I still feel the same way - that you shall always be one of those besties whose value would never depreciate with time. :)

You are among the few people who seem to know me better than myself. And I love how you read my mind even when I don't say a thing. I love it even more - because you know exactly what to say at the right times.

I'm glad to have known you in my lifetime - and am privileged to be your friend. Know that I'll always be there for you through thick and thin as you have been for me.


Friends forever! You can count on me. :)

(Though I regret I couldn't protect you from the toothbrush. LOL XD)

Expect Nothing Less from a True GOT XD

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO ONG EE LYNN WHO MENTIONED TO ME TODAY THAT MY BLOG IS FULL OF NOTHING BUT ANIME. SO I SHALL SHOW MY DARLING READERS A LITTLE ABOUT MY FORWARD STEP IN LIFE INSTEAD OF SWOONING AND CRYING OVER DEAD FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. BWAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh, and guess what - the GOT wrecks havoc wherever s/he goes! XD

Here goes some pics of my sia-suiness that'll attract Vin darling for sure. Waiting for you to come back, hun, and siau sui with me!

Imitating a disabled, paralyzed patient on a wheelchair. Dunno why I was so eager.
(CHOY!! Touch wood!)

Looking so fantastically dignified despite being smudged with Didi's bday cupcake. Keeping true to the spirit of GOT.

Let's just say I picked up a cucumber off the ground and then - used it as a face mask?

As for the results... uh, well...?
...I'll just leave it at that. :P

CURSES! Ama's plague of being broke affects many people far and wide.

... I really don't know what to say about this one.

And to think that I wasn't even in my own room...?

What was I doing again? The pinnacle of my sia suiness, says Vin. XD

AUDREY! Wait til I catch you doing some weird stunt on camera.

...YEAH. We really DON'T pay attention in lectures sometimes.
(Don't let any lecturer of mine catch wind of my blog, people.)

Summary?
UNI LIFE - What joy, what freedom! What unpredictability, what randomness!

The ever unpredictable tutor Mania who's a PhD in Mancylogy! The eccentric Miki with her ever-growing closet! The randomness of ChengX2 - Khaleel at 1am? XD So many other people who've left such a huge mark in my everyday life: Fadhli (Didi), Tien Hui, Ah Skirt, Ziq, KhoiX2, Raz, Hickmarh, Audrey, May, Soo Peng and so many more! Even Fatin... who's now in Terengganu. And oh, the 'love' that my psychotic-fellow-Scorpio-roomie-murderer PowPow has showered me with! Man, I love you guys. :)

And yeah, for those who ask the obvious: I'M ACTUALLY HAVING A BLAST IN UNI. XD

But as for my darling Form 6 friends? Don't need me telling you guys this! You know I'll still miss and love you guys like hell. Nothing else tops this. And I will STILL say this at the end of my three years in uni.

... Now, ain't that sweet of me, MYen? :)

OF New Beginnings

It’s a touchdown for the G.O.T. at USM~! Whoo-hoo! XD A warm welcome for the elusive, gorgeous gay, anyone? A hawt, Korean hunk maybe? Or a pretty Japanese boy?

AND …what a letdown. :(

Men were outnumbered 3:1 by women this time around in USM. A sad state for all us desperate gays. My hopes were completely crushed. Boo. And I’m thinking that by G.O.T.-ism shall face extinction soon if people keep giving birth to females. :(

ANYWAY. So as to not scare my new blog readers, I shall elaborate no further about my ideals. Although, I must say that the current situation with the lack of males will steadily push me to my limits and will eventually steer me into jumping into the International Students’ dorms at night or something. GAHHHHHH.

…okay, uh, I’ll talk about the Orientation Week instead. The first 3 days were verging on HELLISH considering how little time we get to rest and recharge. I had a mere total of 7-8 hours of sleep only for the first 3 days and the stomach-sensitive G.O.T here had a lapse of incurable diarrhea. GAH. The talks were all… TALK, and they were so mundane that I’m unable to comprehend even the simplest info. Awesome, no?

(THIS TUMMY INCIDENT IS GIVING ME A HUGE PHOBIA ABOUT GOING TO KEDAH THIS FRIDAY. I'm probably the only person's who's head over heels worried about barfing a hundred times over a span of 3 days. OMG.)

Plus, we had to walk to the DTSP every single day all the way from our hostels across the road and each walk took us HALF AN HOUR ONE WAY. OMG! But the hall’s HUGE and AMAZING and I really mean HUGE and AMAZING. Wahahaha. State of the art technology, and best of all… AIR-COND. The air-cond is of course, a very important thing to mention. BWAHAHAHAHA

The prestigious DTSP hall... half an hour's walk away from my hostel.

Slept throughout 3/4 of those talks and… I don’t think I should be so frank about it, right? BWAHAHAHAHA! I’m proud to say I wasn’t the only sleepy-head around here! YAY!

Sorry Tien Hui, I took this while you were sleeping in DTSP. Please don't kill me.

Sorry, Pow Pow. I took this when you were sleeping in our lecture room. Please don't kill me.

Most people in the audience were sleeping. And Audrey was the most ill-fated of all – caught in the act through the lens of the camera. OMG! If that’s not enough, her photo was aired on the LCD screen repeatedly during the Makan Malam at the Desasiswa. OMG! XD

USM is HUGE, and it’s just so big that we can get lost just being inside our own FACULTY. HAHAHA! Even with my awesome sense of direction, (the best among all my friends? XD) (Ama’s, Vin’s and Ah Hone’s are among the worst… XD) I just can’t find certain laboratories and lecture halls. FUHHH. I should probably bring along a compass next time I’m venturing USM grounds. SHEESH. Blur. XD

After a brief explanation about the Applied Biology course I’m taking, I can’t help but to feel worried if I can really handle it. Alike most of my blur classmates in Form 6, (XD) we are HORRIBLY INEFFICIENT when it comes to handling experiments and the practical part, in general. OMG. And to think that my course involves lab work every week is just unnerving. OMG!

One of my lecture halls... WOW. XD

We get to choose our major (and probably minor?) next year, but I’m really worried about aiming for Biotechnology. The seniors were saying, “If you take Biotech just because it’s a popular subject and you think that popular subjects are usually good; then don’t cry and beg to drop it in the 2nd year. It’s tough and it really is.”

… OMG. Biotech brings back bad memories about the “Modern Genetics Technology” chapter in Upper 6. The one almost everyone except HuiYing and GeokHooi failed to understand?

Now, do I really want to take Biotech…?

… OMG. XD

What’s even worse than thinking about experiments every week is that: IT IS COMPULSORY FOR US TO TAKE ORGANIC CHEMISTRY AS A CORE SUBJECT.

ORGANIC CHEM??? WHY?!?!?!?! OMG.

…OMG. Now I’m really worried. *swoons*

And by the way, the grading system for universities is just… COMPLEX. I’m completely… BLUR about it. I’m getting blur-er than I could ever be as compared to my blur times with Jamie in Form 5! WHY IN THE WORLD AM I FEELING SO BLUR IN UNI? My brain could hardly comprehend a THING. No thanks to Cheng Cheng, Pow Pow and MANIA. XD OMG, Mania’s the cutest, blur-est little thing in the world! XD

… and how many times did I mention blur in the last paragraph? XD

I'm also kinda sad I can't take Japanese this semester because it clashes with my course timetable. HOWEVER, THAT'LL ALSO MEAN THAT I'M TAKING GERMAN. From a sweet and nice German lecturer. Awesome! Continue rooting for Germans despite being just third! WHOOO-HOOOO!

Ahem. Putting sad stories aside, the Walkrobic was extremely FUN! My Desasiswa Tekun was all pumped up to win but then Fajar Harapan won instead. (Or was it Saujana? Blur. XD) (See what I mean by getting blur-er?)

Myself~

Miki

Pow Pow, Miki, Carol, Myself and Cheng Cheng!

Pow Pow

Carol

Not forgetting, we had very, very helpful seniors in the PPSL in which I was angry at sometimes for pushing us really hard into the wee hours in the morning – but they really, really worked hard for us. We can be a tough lot to handle, but somehow they pulled through.

My hostel is Tekun, by the way – in which I think I did mention somewhere up on top.

TEKUN!!! (Hai kawan-kawan!) XD

M06, my block.

I HATE THESE STAIRS.
We climb and average of 200 steps every single day. No wonder I'm slimming down. SHEESH!

My awesome, clean, hostel room! WHOO-HOO!!! Lucky enough to even get CORNER lot which is bigger than the average rooms... :)

And of course, I met some really awesome new friends. :)

In PingYing's room! Pow Pow, myself and PingYing!

... amazing. BWAHAHAHAHA. Watching Naruto Shippuden in PingYing's room XD

Pow Pow and me. Did I mention that Pow Pow is my roommate?

The sweet Audrey from Cameron Highlands. She's awesome in many different ways!

At Makan Malam Desasiswa. Myself, the blur Mania, Ija and Ain. 1MALAYSIA!!!!

Pow Pow and her crazy fellow Johorean whom I call, 'Ah Skirt'. Precisely because her name in Chinese means skirt.

USM, here I come! XD

Finally a post about myself. WAHAHAHAHA.

I noted that I've been blogging too little about myself lately so yeah, since I'm up and everything waiting to start rooting fervently for Spain - I might as well pass some time babbling to myself about myself. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

Erm... 3/4 of the world I live in already know I'm accepted into USM for Applied Bio, so let me enlighten the other 1/4 who do not know. XD Applied Bio is generally the term used to describe a study of how to apply Biology in life. Applying Biology in technology, agriculture, genetics, machinery, engineering and etc. And that would actually mean that I'm studying a little bit of everything- comprising of biotechnology, biomedicine, horticulture, aquaculture, prosthetic, pharmaceuticals - everything in general. In which I can choose later on to major on something, I guess?

And I feel infinitely blessed to be given a course in something that I HAVE AT LEAST STUDIED ABOUT BEFORE. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. And the reason I say this is because I know too many other friends of mine who obtained courses that had no connection to whatsoever we wasted our time on in Form Six.

An example of that would be Bio stream students getting engineering courses or arts courses and Physics stream students getting bio-related courses.

I wonder if the allocator really did just close his/her eyes whilst randomly selecting students for random courses. That's just called... negligence.

... of course, we're all rather immune to it.

ANYWAY. Yeah. I find myself kinda envying those who have the opportunity to go far and wide; leaving home, seeking independence. Exploring new worlds. Getting lost in foreign cities. Making new friends. Meeting interesting people. Experiencing different cultures. Adapting to a completely different lifestyle. I'm just stuck in Penang for the next 3 years.

Sure, I'll get to meet new people and find new pals. Probably fall in love with a Korean or two. (Somebody said USM reeks of Koreans. *swoons*) Nosebleed over the gorgeous foreign blue-eyed GIRLS. Getting a little lost in USM. Hmmm. I guess it ain't so bad after all...?

I should probably count my blessings as I can still meet my parents and come home anytime I want to. Save money by doing my laundry when I come home for the weekends. Still can go on family vacations and all that. Close to home, close to comfort. And my hostel's amazingly lenient without curfews. At least that won't affect my World Cup fever as the mamak store is just a walk away. WAHAHAHAHA.

And not forgetting, the best thing about being in Penang would be the FOOD. I might as well kiss my university-diet-plan goodbye. WTH.

Another plus factor? Still able to hang out with the remaining monkeys left in Penang. XD

On another note, many people will be flocking far, far away soon. Some of them who'll be carrying with them our 13 years' worth of friendship. But then again, everyone needs to leave each other to walk their own path - after all, life is a journey in itself. Some are actually already planning to have babies with an Aussie. (OMG.)

There are many forks in life that will lead each and every one of us further and further apart from each other. But alike what I once told Vin - the instant we met, we've already been connected in our hearts. And this bond pulls strings in a way that even distance cannot separate.

Parting ways is part and parcel of life - strangely haunting, yet essential to move forward in life.

But saying goodbye is hard, and I abhor it. So let me take this opportune moment to tell all of you; who matter so much in my life, a very energetic "SEE YOU AGAIN!" instead of a mundane and sad 'farewell'. We''re definitely destined to meet again, no?

And so... Ganbatte minna! We're gonna be a bunch of professionals in the near future. WAHAHAHAHA. See you all again in 4 years!

... oh and for those who are feeling lonely already, missing the energetic GAY here - I'll remind you that our sweet memories do not collect dust. And that you too are sorely missed and loved by this hawt gay here. XD

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

10 Reasons why I Flunked Form Six

Now this post is REALLY random, but I do feel like reminiscing about my wondrous, youthful time in Form Six. A mere 10 reasons out of a million:

10 REASONS WHY I FLUNKED FORM SIX

#1: Gambling in class during lessons

#2: Running off to eat glorious food while lessons are ongoing in class

#3: Spying on THE KID IN THE OPPOSITE BLOCK

#4: Watching movies in school

#5: Committing suicide

#6: Watching lovers in tuition instead of concentrating

#7: Money problems

#8: Eating in class during lessons

#9: Goofing off in class (most frequently done)

#10: Searching for lovers (found aplenty!)

To sum it all up? Form Six + Friends = Joy + Love. I've not regretted a single moment spent with you guys in Form Six. =) Thanks for making it happen. Thanks for the unforgettable memories.

WE ROCKED GENTING!!! (Day 2)

FIRST OF ALL: I'd like to say, it took me SIX HOURS IN TOTAL TO FINISH TYPING TWO POSTS, which is my longest yet. WHOA. XD

Us overexcited people woke up at 7.30am in the morning to start our outdoor adventure!! WHOO-HOOO!!!!

The initial plan was to start queuing up before the theme park even opened at 10am. HAHAHAHA! Too bad we took too much time taking photos and everything that we only ended up going down to check out at 9.30am or something. WOW.

This is one of the many, many photos that we took that morning. Looking back on the photos in Vin's FB, I had this sudden realisation that I didn't move an inch from my lazy position. HAHAHAHAHA Oops! XD

I like this photo too~! XD

Whoo-hoo!! After checking out and throwing our bags away, we practically RAN to the outdoor theme park! We started things off with the Pirate Ship!! Wished it would go higher though. BOOO. This one did not turn us 360 degrees. It was only close to 180, but not there yet. BOOO.

Thank you whoever who took this photo!!! Was it MingYen? I wanted to know who's the culprit who kept pulling my hair during the ride. XD

It was fun, though! We then jumped right into this Corkscrew ride which completely destroyed the Rapist's ribcage or something. HAHAHAHA probably her lungs flew out before she knew it...

Corkscrew!!! AWESOME!!! I really like this ride!! Wasn't even long enough for me to start yelling. HAHAHAHAHA~!!

I'm surprised that the TWO MOST ENERGETIC DAREDEVILS were actually the TWO OLDEST PEOPLE in the world. HAHAHAHAHA!! Whoo-hooo for Apek and Ama, man! These two old people really know how to extend longevity! It was their suggestion that brought the whole bunch of them to sit the Space Shot!!

The noisiest bunch in the queue to the Space Shot. :)

(If only I could go on too, it was really fun! But thanks to my motion sickness and my VERY bad experiences vomiting almost every trip I go on, I decided to avoid this ride and the Spinner. XD)

Look how fun it is!! WHOO-HOOO~!!!

This was when they were going up. Coming down suddenly was AWESOME!!! Whoa!!!

WengWah was my motion sickness partner but he's a special case, man. HAHAHAHA. He get's motion sickness on the bus but is perfectly FINE on every other single ride in the theme park. WOW... :)

MingYen, HuiYing and I passed on the Space Shot. We went for the Merry Go Round instead. HAHAHAHAHAHA~

Next time, I'm gonna do the Space Shot thing!! DEFINITELY! Whoooo-hooooooo!!!

We were randomly walking around and..... VIN FOUND HER BATTERY CHARGER!!!

Go Vin, recharge yourself!!!

HAHAHAHAHA somehow HYing says that Vin's expression in these photos are very... ERM.... extreme. HAHAHAHAHA

We went for another roller coaster right on some Dragon thing. It must be fate that brought us together with these buncha small, cute, THAI kids. Yeah, Ama's hometown! That's when these pedophiles (HYing, MYen, Ju and Ama XD) showed their TRUE colours. HAHAHAHAHA! MYen started speaking Thai to the little boy and she claims that, "his face lit like a bulb."

.... Yo, MYen. You sure you said the correct thing, bo??? XD

Anyway, that's how this picture with the kids came about! HAHAHAHA. To think that we didn't even know them... :) WHOA!! We're awesome!

Group pic with the kids! This pic is really nice!

For some strange reason, everyone just jumped on in to take this photo. Which looks very nice. XD

Next up: TIME TO GET WET!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA!! I LOVE the Sungai Rejang ride!! It was BEYOND fun!! HuiYing and I like water-water stuff. It was worth it, getting all wet and stuff. And then we all really froze up because of the weather and the water. Bwahahahaha~

The ride in which Juju is VERY scared of.

HAHAHAHAHA! No belts or anything. Which is why it's frightening, I guess? XD

Whoo-hooo!!! For some strange reason, I'm the wettest among all eight of us. HAHAHAHA! (Don't tell me it's because of my body mass or I'll kill you all. XD)

SPLASH~!!! Ours was the biggest!!

Vin blames it on me, for eating too much Maggie Mee in the morning but based on both HuiYing's observation and mine, IT'S BECAUSE OF AMA. XD Hahahaha~
(I only had one a half cups of Maggie Mee!!!)

Next, we went on that KILLER Train Ride in which we sat two times in a row. HAHAHAHAHA the first time with Apek was unpleasant because I wanted to.... uh, Harvard. XD HAHAHA. Halfway during the ride he PURPOSELY pushed the rail that almost destroyed my bladder. WOW. *sweatdrops* Second time with Ji Mui was really, really fun!! His screaming was so... WHOO-HOOOO!! Hahahaha! I almost banged my head on the wall!! WHOO-HOOOOO!!!!

WAH!!!! Everyone then went on the Cyclone without HuiYing and I!!! I wanted to go on it but the queue was too long already!! BOOOOOOO!!! But Juju didn't go on the Cyclone either. :(

Somehow Apek's red shirt is very distinguishable... XD

HuiYing and I went for a second round on the Sungai Rejang wet ride and then a cute train ride. XD How romantic, no?

TA-DA~!! Us cuties!!! XD

Then we went to London Cafe to grab a bite of GARLIC BREAD WHICH COSTED RM5. Whoa. But we get to sit in a bus-like restaurant! YAY!

Cuties rock!! Friends forever!! :)

We looked outside the bus to see these two cute people posing for us:

Two cute people posing for us~

... and a VERY RANDOM DEAD FACE STARING AT US FROM OUTSIDE.

Whoa, Apek?!?! Kena psycho by Cyclone??

Whoo-hooo!! Next up, we went on the Spinner!! Erm.. THEY went on the Spinner. Juju and I watched. YAY!!! I have a partner who gets dizzy like me!! :) So we took great shots of our darlings up there spinning their heads off. XD

HuiYing says that Ama is actually very childish. YEAH. In fact, in one of the photos she looks like some kinda hyper excited kiddo, man. HAHAHAHAHA

Fly, people, fly!!

It's amazing that they went for TWO rounds on the headache-inducing spinner. But of course, they're AWESOME people!! XDD

Back on Earth.

Ooooh! This is the photo in which Ama looks like Superman with white undies outside! XD Hahahaha at least she's not blocking you, yup HuiYing darling? XD

We then took some random group shots at Beryl's. I LOVE THE PHOTOS HERE OMG!!!! and not to mention the free chocolate tasting. HAHAHAHA

Cramped shot! XD

I LOVE THIS PHOTO!!!!

Everyone looks so natural, as if we're posing for some kinda play called Life. WOW!

But I was wondering... what sign language are you doing yup... Ju??? XD

AWWWWWWW~

(I see the Harvard pose again XD)

Well, sadly... it was then time to go back. :( Boo. Just two days in Genting felt like some kinda crazily, fun dream in a faraway land!! We've GOTTA do this again, man! Next stop Sunway Lagoon, guys? XD

At the Bus Terminal where everybody's batteries followed Vin's in unison to become FLAT. XD

And in the bus..? It was time to catch some much needed recharge. XD



And the bus was REALLY peaceful until 7pm or so when our bladders started screaming, "HARVARD!!!" Hahahahaa!! And that was when all the random nonsense came out from our half-dead speech: something about Sammo Hung, Donnie Yen and Bobby OWWWWWWW!! HAHAHAHAHA!!

Something else memorable during that bus trip was that I started campaigning for votes as Prime Minister thanks to Harvard!! Whoo-hooo!! "Vote for me, I'll liberate your bladders!!" XD Not to mention Ji Mui's sexy rendition of Wonder Girls and Lady Gaga's Telephone on the Pen Bridge. AWESOMEEEE~!!! We must have a karaoke session with Ji Mui!! I laughed my head off in the bus!!

Thank you HuiYing for very meticulously planning this trip. I wanna let you know that your efforts are very much appreciated for attempting to bring us all together in such a short amount of time! I really had fun and I hope that everyone else had as much fun as I did. Sorry, guys, for always making you wait for us - I understand that having 4 women, 1 pondan and 1 gay must be very tough on you all. XD

Thank you MingYen for your Harvard nonsense, Ju for your companionship, Ama for being a SIAU KIA and Vinny darling for your shower of LOVE and sida-sida-ing me even though I just came back from my Thailand operation. XD

I appreciate our short but fun time together... and VIN!! Don't get these siau kia ideas that we won't meet again or something!! There's a time and place for everything and so, if you just believe and have faith in this word called "FRIENDSHIP", destiny and love will somewhat move its strings in a way that distance cannot separate.

LOVE YOU ALL LOADS. :)