It begins, unsuspecting, unpredictable as life is,
when a shadow steps in with red beats.
A memory rekindled of a childhood I miss,
when a boy and a girl - now grown up, meets.
A union was found with the shake of hands.
An endless intertwined loop of similarities.
With his silver tongue, her wounded heart mends -
You patched me up piece by piece.
Standing on a veranda overlooking the sun
as it sets, slowly, a mesmerizing view.
When this day ends, will it take with it my fun?
Or does it promise happier days anew?
Underestimate not, the power of a gentle gesture,
even a simple smile would suffice.
It shakes the roots even of my nature -
over an extravagant dinner of seafood and rice.
My idle footsteps are heard under the velvet night,
that was when I first got lost in your eyes.
Am overpowered with the urge to hold you tight -
to feel your warmth beneath the pitch dark skies.
A dreaded moment of when we had to part,
as the stars came to take their place.
Little did I know, this was just a start -
as you continue to amaze.
:)
flesh and blood
mortal.
But I have within me
an inextinguishable flame
that ever burns
with an insatiable passion
a ceaseless hunger
a piqued curiosity
of Your endless love and compassion.
For You are beautiful
glorious in holiness
fearful in praises
(Exodus 15:11) doing wonders
so majestic
all sufficient.
With You
I feel no solitude
I taste no grief
I fear no evil.
In You
I have found strength
I am lent wisdom
I acquired faith
all renewed.
You work wonders
and now
the ones I love
are inching closer to salvation.
Friends
rejoice in the Lord!
For He hears, sees and speaks
right into the heart of those He chose to touch
and would change them for a lifetime
for the better good.
:)
This is my testimony of how He spoke to me in 1 Chr 16:10-11. The Lord truly is amazing by helping me pull the ones I love closer to Him. You work wonders in ways that I can never comprehend. And in the end, I just know that I love You all the more. Thank you, Lord for all that you do. :)
Yes, the 9th of July rally is over and done with but that does not mean that we should stop talking about Bersih 2.0.
The desired outcomes of Bersih are relevant and necessary towards a healthy and successful nation building. It does not end unless there is a true electoral reformation that will see us Malaysians basking in the light of an impartial and clean election.
There are 8 issues that Bersih calls for a change:
2. Reform postal ballot
3. Use of indelible ink
4. A minimum of 21 days campaigning period
5. Free and fair access to media
6. Strengthening of public institutions
7. Stop corruption
8. Stop dirty politics
(Reference: About Bersih 2.0 )
I think that if you label yourself a patriot; a real Malaysian, you would be fighting to protect the calls of change in which Bersih is fighting for. The assumption that rallying on the streets, or a demonstration (as they call it, whilst slyly dropping the word 'peaceful' selectively) can only lead to public fear is nothing but an outright lie.
Why so? Because this rally has dug up the genuine beauty of us Malaysians - as ONE.
I believe that it is through rallying that our voices can truly be heard. And it is through this sort of gathering that we can see the bright colours of our fellow Malaysians shine - in times of support and trouble. If you would take the time to read this article (click here) you will see that so many of our countrymen actually love Malaysia so much and that we do all we can to fight for a better Malaysia.
The 9th of July 2011 made me proud - that I am a patriot - striving for a maturing nation, fighting for the better good and loving the courageous people who dared to voice out.
For him and only him. :D
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Long to be
Only with you
Vast is our options
Endless is our strength
Yesterday is but another memory
Onwards we walk
Unrelenting
.
:) Let's keep going strong.
OMIGOSH. Level E mania! I recently started watching Level E. And I seriously LOL-ed at the anime.
Why, you ask? XD A fair share of bishie action from the dearly beloved Prince Baka + hilarious comedy that makes no sense + random dawdles + totally no storyline = WIN. MUAHAHAHAHA
I've been missing my share of randomness ever since I finished Gintama. I want to rewatch, maybe? But my complete collection is with Edward Lee? LOL.
BTW? GAYS ARE AWESOME. Teehee.
The thing about men is that they let emotions run free before they find out the truth about things. Trust is but a meaningless word unless it is put into action. Just because men ARE men, a man's ego does nothing to right the wrong. Cos that'd be sexist.
SO YEAH. Gays are awesome. MUAHAHAHA yaoi, wooooots! (Rehab an utter fail from its humble beginnings.*dies*) BWAHAHAHAHA XD
AND. Nobody wants to be a caged bird.
A caged bird can be fed until they're full - but food can never satiate their hunger for the sky. Why is it restrained, when it can spread its wings and soar the limitless skies? Though stripped and bare - why not trust those wings that'll help to discover all those infinite possibilities?
SO YEAH. I'm in support of Bersih 2.0. LOL. It's high time we undergo some reformation, hello. We are in need of a clean election. Because this is part of our rights.
This goes out to the one person out there that holds my heart. I mean it each time I tell you those 3 words.
With that concludes my utterly random post. Anime, politics, gays and relationships. MUAHAHAHAHA how much better does my blog get? XD
G.O.T. Out.
Oooooh and so I've been missing in action here for almost three months? I surprise myself with my MIA stunts sometimes. Wheeeeeee~
I'm here to set my priorities straight and so to tell the world! These are the things that matter to me most in my life. In order.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA at the end of all that mushy talk about loving all you people out there I'm here to clarify that MY NUMBER FIVE PRIORITY HAS BEEN ROBBED OF ME SINCE LAST NIGHT. 500GB OF MY PRECIOUS TREASURE GONE!!! Yes, am filled with regrets... but then I must get onto the path of rehab once and for all.
Moral of the story people?
1. I'm whacked. No surprise there. Teehee.
2. Money isn't everything but it sure is something.
3. Divine love is the best kind of love that you can ever experience in this lifetime.
And so. Becky the random GOT is back. And out.
sometimes
moving on
means stepping out
of your comfort
opening up
and allowing others
to touch you
and delve deep
within you.
as gentle as wind
as tender as rose
as smooth as silk
so sweet the talk
yet stronger than steel
beyond caring
was he.
windows opened within
the gates rattled
too close a call.
I am still me.
change nothing.
opening up receives another
loving means accepting
not changing
but to cherish one for all they are.
He is
anything but monotonous
living and growing in me
all that one can ask for
nothing can outdo.
:)
Wheeeeee~! And so comes a random post about quick updates in my life. YESSSSSS this gay here is feeling random once again.
So it was evident that I ran out of steam toward the end of my blogging spree once again. XD Sooooo sorry people.
But today I'm back here with one single declaration to the world: MY BLOG IS ALIVE! BWAHAHAHAHAHA. I've been hit with the sudden realization that I ALWAYS choose to blog during the periods in which I am most busy and most stressed. Yeaaah. Right now I'm facing the pressure of the exam season.
Next paper up would be Programming, in which I suck, because it was my fault in the first place to neglect it. Uhhhh no. I'm not being emo here BWAHAHAHAHAHA. Cmon people. When was the last time you actually saw gay me emo huh? I'll just take one trouble and BWAHAHAHAHA it to its face. So yeaaaah. XD
Once again I thank Apek Cheah for saving my Programming from utter annihilation. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. And I now thank my darling roommate who taught me enough Chemistry to get it past today's paper with little stress. Awwww ILOVEPOWPOW. Don't cry, darling. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Um what else is happening? Nothing major actually. Besides that I haven't been gaming much or doing anything constructive at all. GOSH. I haven't even been reading enough to even blog about anything. :O
I did however, watch two movies recently. SCREAM 4 and The Roommate!
Scream 4 didn't quite give me a scream but it did jolt me up from my seat a few times. Sound effects much. Teeee heee.
Scream 4 was okay. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. I had a good laugh throughout. But of course Final Destination gave me the biggest laugh of all to date. BWAHAHAHAHA. What's best about this show Screm 4 is that NOBODY COULD HAVE EVER GUESSED THE IDENTITY OF THE PSYCHOTIC KILLER. Awesome, eh.
So yeahhh if I have perked your interest, do watch this show. XD
And then there's The Roommate, which I watched today to release the stress of having sat for a Chemistry paper in which time was thwarted and deficient.
If I'm not disturbing enough for you, do watch this show because this psychotic person shares MY NAME. WTH, right?! BWAHAHAHAHAHA. Rebecca's such a popular name nowadays. (Black and all XD) I am GLAD that my dear PowPow chose to not watch this show with me. She will be... disturbed. BWAHAHAHAHA.
And that concludes the brief update about my life right now. Kthxbai.
I forgot something. Didn't I?
Oooooh yeah. With more than 70 likes, 60 comments and over 200 people being confirmed with diabetes, what's the most happening thing on my Facebook right now?
Rebecca Koay is currently in a relationship with Alan Woo. :)
Ciao. Out.
between the past and the future
of filial piety
or Obedience
of philia
or agape
of roots
or salvation.
the wide gate
calls out to me
the popular choice
so effortless
requires no sacrifice
and of simple decisions.
the narrow gate
is never easy
encompassed
by trials and tribulations
temptations
and reproach
that question your faith.
but why
give up?
but why
surrender?
when the most beautiful things in life
has unfolded itself
right in front of you?
why
let go
of the One who
truly loves
who is the Truth
who is the Way
who is the Life?
why
abdicate
the only One
who would die for you
to save you
so that you may Live?
the narrow gate
envelopes me with inhuman warmth
with longing
and of such passion
that only He can fill.
a reminder
of His preeminence
a clarity
priority
that He is above all.
regardless
the gate that I chose to walk
at this first crossroad
does not mean I have forgone my past
for my past is who I am
the future is not a barrier
nor a factor
that will ever change how I feel for you.
...I will love you for always and for eternity.
Much has been said about finding our spiritual gifts and then igniting them with a fervent passion for the Lord. And I prayed onto the Lord daily that He would show me clear signs as to what was my gift.
Surely enough - today, I had this sudden epiphany about what COULD be my gift. HAHAHAHAHA. It came to me when I was doing my daily devotion today - when I suddenly felt that I expressed myself best in written words.
YEAHHHH. This feeling - have I got the gift of writing? :D
You know, there's a profound difference when I write and when I speak. I feel as though the words just slip off my fingertips when I write (or type, for this matter HAHAHAHA) WAY faster than they slip off my tongue. I express myself so much better when I put it to paper (or blog XD) compared as to when I say them out loud. The best thing is that when I WRITE, I don't pause to think. It just... flows.
As I flip through my journal in my walk with Him, I too realize that I've been building my relationship with Him through written words. And I tend to get very personal in my prayer when I write. In a way, His Words (= Bible) relates to me in a very, very personal way that I can't really describe literally in spoken words. The Lord = Word = Life. My life. XD
So, Lord, is that my gift?
Well, I know that I shouldn't rush things especially in my relationship with Him, right? Because sometimes rushing things may cause us to lose sight of it, no? So I'll just take it in accordance to His will, at His pace. Simply because we know that our time is not measured at the same pace as His time. So once again, I commit this to Him and wait on Him to startle me with another sudden revelation. MUAHAHAHAHA. Praise God! :)
Ohhh. On another note - how the Lord has answered my prayers! HAHAHAHA! About a month ago, I wanted to get a commentary Bible. So I asked Him to guide me to get one in which I can really connect and understand so that I can learn more about Him. Truth be told (confession! HAHAHA) I am really bad when it comes to discipline in reading His Word. Sometimes because I find it hard to truly gain an understanding. YEAAAAH.
Imagine my surprise when I walked into Borders and came to realize that commentary Bibles, or rather, Bibles on the whole - are pretty expensive! So I waited on Him (once again: not rushing things and doing it at His pace) and true enough - yesterday Rou En told me to ask Darshinii about study bibles - sold at a student price of RM60 ONLY. WHAT A STEAL, MAN. OMG. I'm definitely getting one. SOOOOOO CHEAP! Compared to the Rm120 and above ones that I saw. WOW! CHEAP!
Ahahahaha. So once again, praise God! MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
Isn't it PHENOMENAL to see Him do His thing even in the smallest occasions in life? He is truly ever-faithful. And that's why I *heart* Him~ XD Awwwwww.
WHOOOOOO-HOOO! New layout! Hope it works because I got too lazy to make my own. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. And then my laziness is back after one whole week of being hardworking. MUAHAHAHAHAHA XD
Anyway. Coming back to the topic - I went everywhere and did it all. Uni life rocks! XD
A USM first! Enjoying Starbucks all the more with great company! (btw, Caramel Macchiato tastes like milk BWAHAHAHAHA)
The tailor behind Pow's clothes. Man, I totally rock. MUAHAHAHAHA. I was sewing her costume for her upcoming dance event. WOW! I turned it from a cloth into a dress. MUAHAHAHAHA I am so gifted! (insert super perasan look here) XD
Guess what? We (Wan Yin, Leong, Pow and me) became Pharmacy students for a day! Whooo-hooooo! Their Dewan Kuliah gives off a totally different vibe altogether. Eerie OMG.
Pow doing some really random pose there in DK X. =.='
Went cycling with Pow! ONCE AGAIN: A REMINDER TO ALL. NEVER CYCLE UP A HILL WITHOUT STAMINA FOR YOU WILL BECOME AN OKU.
Leong cycling! I took this while cycling. MUAHAHAHAHA. I'm such a pro. Sorry I didn't manage to take Wan Yin/Pow. You two were so far in front that day...
Bubble fest in USM! I wanted to go try, but then I was running late for my rehearsal at Dewan Budaya the other day. And I think one's gotta pay to play. Boooo. How I wish everything was free. Grrrr.
You're looking at the number of beans the new CHOPSTICK MASTER MANAGED TO PICK OUT. Muahahahahaha! Won 2 RedBox complimentary tickets for this! MUAHAHAHAHAHA
Now who said bananas can't use chopsticks?! I'll prove them wrong! XD
Pow, myself and Khoi at the Karnival Wanita!
THANK YOU KHOI KHOI for the ice cream. Awwww. It tasted all the better XD
OWL ASLEEP IN CLASS. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA this is proof that everyone sleeps in class! Wheeeeee~!
So many other ppl were sleeping in class. Sorry I had to take only YOUR photo.
Dunno what stunt Pow was trying to pull in Pizza Hut the other day =.="
Mania looking cute with our deadly concoction of Coke + Cheese + Pepper + Tabasco sauce! MUAHAHAHAHAHA. The very next day after she drank that, she came down with Chickenpox. See what I mean by deadly? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
My CNY cookies that I baked! A VERY VERY small batch of it. XD
Audrey's muka tertidur in Pulau Jerejak. Epic la wei XD
When Pow and I decided to do some Taylor Swift stunt by disturbing our neighbour and writing weird signs and showing them off to her. Poor girl, we must have scared her silly (she never opened her curtains ever again) BWAHAHAHAHAHA
An earphone connection! Both us roomies showing off our awesome new earphones! Mine's red and hers are green. Wheeeeeee~! Support USM's PC fair!!
And that was a very brief recap of the silly/weird/disturbing/memorable things we've done this semester in USM. Yet another awesome semester soon to end.
